Have you ever made a mistake, and then while trying to fix the mistake you made another mistake... the latter being worse than the former? This happened to me this week. A couple of days ago I was posting my daily morning devotional when things went bad very quickly. I had forgotten to write a title. As I posted, I realized this. Then I created a new post with a title. But the untitled version was still on the site. I went to delete that post, but I deleted the entire blog. That may not seem like a big deal to you. But I have over 300 posts on this site. That represents a lot of time, thoughts, and effort. It is at least 250 hours. That is literally over 100 straight days of work.
Ok... so as soon as the entire site went away I said, "Oh no." I called myself dumb, stupid, idiot, etc. (I'm pretty hard on myself.) Anyway, I felt extra dumb because before I deleted the whole blog, a pop-up had asked me if I was sure I wanted to do that. I was in a hurry and clicked 'Yes.' Becky asked what happened. I looked around trying to find my site. Nothing. Empty pages. I started whimpering as I asked God to restore the devotionals. I just kept saying, "God, please don't let me lose all of that. Please save the work. Please restore it." I must have said that phrase 10 times. Then I hear Becky say, "I can see it. It is on my phone. Even the one you did this morning." I couldn't believe it.
It was there, but it was having some trouble. It would only pull it all up together. Each page would not come up on its own. I literally could have been satisfied with that, but I decided to ask for technical support to help me get it back as it was to begin with. They did that. It took them a day, but it is all back like it was. It is restored to its original condition. And I am wiser.
This is what God does. He restores... actually to better than original condition. We mess things up real good... even going against the prompts asking us if we are CERTAIN we want to do this thing. Then when we do wrong, we think we have lost it for good. But God is a restoring God. He's just that merciful and gracious. As the apostle Peter says, "He restores, establishes, strengthens, and supports... after we have suffered a little."
But I do think He wants us to be wiser going forward. If I keep deleting my website, I waste the restorative nature of God's work. I wouldn't do that in the natural. I shouldn't do that in the spiritual realm.